A while back I lost it. When I say lost it, I mean completely lost it. My sisters were here and it had been a busy few days. Like always the ones we love the most get the brunt of our emotions. A few misunderstandings & I found myself yelling... loudly. Then I ran to my room. I hit the wall with my head... I guess my head is harder because I now have a nice round dent in my wall. The glass shower block... no dent, just a nice fat headache. After trying to beat myself up I fell in a heap on the tile floor... sobbing. I hadn't cried like that in years... not since the postpartum "era". It was pathetic. I had snot running into my hair. I was a mess. I finally pulled myself together & got in the truck to head to St. Louis with my 2 sisters. As we began our drive Dawn handed me a CD to put in and explained that the 1st song is her "anthem". As it began to play the tears began to flow again. I began to think about each of our lives... all so different yet the same. Looking from the outside people see many different things. However, each one of us is struggling with our own trials. Some you can see from the outside but many are hidden behind a very pretty "picture-perfect" life. As we sat in the truck each crying our own tears I felt a love for them like never before. My hurts were their hurts and their aches were my aches.
"Stand"
You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright, you'll be alright
[Chorus:]
Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you Stand, Then you stand
Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on
Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend till you break
Cause it's all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, then you stand
Every time you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place
Oh
[Repeat Chorus]
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