71* Dec. 27, 2008

Gratitude Journal... I haven't done one of these for a while!
1. Nice people... they make life bearable.
2. The Atonement... it's healing power and constantness (is that a real word).
3. Death... it means this life will definitely end, even if it takes a hundred years it will end.
4. Knowledge and Faith... to know the purpose of life and understand He really does care and has a plan.

5. Peace... there is nothing like the peace the Holy Ghost brings.  When I listen and let the noise of the world go I am at peace with the decisions we've made and who we are.  It's when I let the world in that I become overwhelmed.  I have felt little payoff for the obedience and sacrifices made in raising our family.  Instead I feel judged and belittled, shunned at times.  By the world's standards we are no better off for living the gospel, even worse off in many instances.  I've realized I have one foot firmly planted in the gospel, practically cemented.  Most often both feet are firmly planted however, at times I try to keep a toe in the world.  I want to find understanding there or possibly acceptance.  I think that is when my world comes crashing in.  I will never find what I am looking for there.  I go back to the scripture in Isaiah 55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord 9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
It brings peace back to my soul & reminds me of what I already know...  This crazy mess of a family is growing up fast.  If we hold to the rod and continue to be obedient we will be an eternal family... with all our crazy messed-upness!  Isn't that what this is really all about?