Day 237

What a day. I learned a new word, cognitive dissonance. I realized I experienced this a number of years ago. It was probably one of my darkest times. I couldn’t make sense of what I believed to be true and what was playing out in my life and the life of a child. I didn’t understand how much that experience changed me until today.  I am experiencing something similar again. I’m not sure how I feel about it. I fear the changes it will require of me. I fear I will lose a part of me that I don’t want to lose.